Aku adalah Aku.

aku menelantarkan dunia dan mimpiku.

menyerahkan sebuah kehidupan yang awalnya adalah millikku.

aku bukan seorang penyair atau penyastra dengan bakat alami.

tapi aku pernah mencobanya untuk masuk ke dalam sudut tak terjangkau tersebut.

dan kini aku kembali hidup meninggalkannya bak mimpi di kala fajar tiba.

aku terbangun dan menaungi kehidupan yang sejak awal adalah sebuah takdir.

ketika aku bertanya pada diri sendiri, inikah yang diri ini inginkan.

sebagian kisah menyiratkan bahwa sebelum ada di dunia ini, manusia pernah ada di sini sebelumnya.

manusia memiliki rotasi 2500 tahun seperti kalanya bintang.

dan ketika aku bangun dan menyadari bahwa aku menginginkan sesuatu, aku larut dan tertidur dalam bayang itu hingga aku lupa cara untuk hidup.

kini aku hidup dalam mimpi dan tertidur dalam mimpi tanpa tahu bagaimana harus kembali hidup.

I miss you again just like it's yesterday

My desire to see you just won't disappear

You just keep appearing in my mind

The more I comfort myself, the more I cry

Even if I rub away those tears secretly

The memories spreading to other memories

Making me cry with pain

I regret that I've only received

Will you forget me because I haven't given you anything

I love you, I love you

This is what I learned from you

Out of all the words and phrases in the world

This has become my favorite phrase

I mutter it to myself, as if I were stupid

I'm really, I'm

I'm for these words that are too late

I wait for you without a sense of honor

will you return tomorrow by chance.

I was a fool.
My regrets were too late too. I know that it can't be turned back.
I know that I can't see you too.
I was so wrong, I'm so sorry.
I didn't get to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry

I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myself with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.

Don't be like that, think about it.
Think about what it took us to get here
Think about it again, you're going to regret it.
I was so wrong, I'm really sorry
I didn't get a chance to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry

I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myeslf with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.

I can't live a moment without you.
I still cry even no matter how I drink or if I cut my hair.

I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myself with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.

Don't ruin yourself anymore..

all about goodbye.

meet and say goodbye it's a thing that unavoidable.

saying goodbye isn't the hard part.

it's what we leave behind that's thought.

goodbye make you realise what you've had

what you have lost and what you have taken for granted.

there's no second chance in this life.

and even if there is a second chance it won't make a change.

just like Time is like a river,you can't touch the same water twice cos the flow that has passed will never pass again..

time change everything, we must let go it..

no need a tear drop to regret it, we must face it and continue our life.

we must start to stop analysing the past, cause what that has gone will never come back.

we can recalling that memory in our mind but not in our life.

the things that we had done, we will never do it again.

i will face my past without regrets.

handle my present with confidence.

and prepare for the future without fear.

surrender all to my Lord n Saviour.

my life is Yours , LORD..

they said that time flies so fast..

for me,, time flies so fast and I'll make it even faster..

finally, i wake up and realise the truth about us, that you and i doesn't belong in one sentence.

wondering what it was that made you change..

cause you has been change, i can't stand here anymore.

you change too much.

and i think if there is a chance, we won't make change.

i decided to whispered goodbye and never to return again.

someday you will wake up and realise i'm not here any longer.

everyday i wish you were here, but there's something we can't work on.

we can't change the truth, that people change and everything goes wrong.

you had been too far away, you the one who make the distance between us.

the only thing that i know and understand that we'll separated by a long,long distance.

and at that time, we can't change anything. it's too late.

even when you ask me to stay, i will answer you. "you never asked me to stay."

i know you did loved me yesterday even tomorrows not.

your happiness is my only consideration even i'm not part of it.

i'll smile for you eventhou' i'm hurting inside.

i ever think to ruin up your life, cause you gone, you change too much.

but finally i realise it's not easy to broke someone life when you know how precious they are.

i just want you to be happy, to find your own happiness..

i won's struggle so much for i believe best thing happen when not expected.

i just tried to letting you go.

and now is the time to say my last goodbye cause i don't want to have another goodbye.

please, have a faith that another love will wait for you just around the bend..

~..........~

as beautiful the spring and summer

the autumn and winter will always come.

in autumn most trees shed their leaves

the leaves that have been grown in spring and summer.

in winter all leaves will go away

just like our memories

even there many good times like the plant in the spring

the winter will always come and there is no more leaves

as the autumn, the trees shed their leaves

just like me shed my tears

seperti apa yang pernah ku fikirkan.

seperti bayangan yang selalu datang di fikiranku..

yahhhh. pada akhirnya dunia itu selalu berputar.

tat kala aku baru bermanja diri bersama langit diantara permandani bewarna biru.

aku harus bangun dan tersadar.

bahwa bukan disinilah tempatku tuk berdiri.

ketika segalanya menjadi sempurna, dan ketika kehadiran itu begitu melengkapi.

aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan yang tak kasatmata yang terus berjuang dan mencoba untuk hadir.

namun,apalah daya seorang bayangan.

dia ada namun takkan pernah terlihat..

dunia itu menamparku dengan satu kenyataan.

bahwa yahh memang segalanya berubahhh.

kamu terlalu letih untukkk sadar dan kamu akhirnya tertidur..

dan ketika fajar membangunkan, dedaunan telah kering musim gugurpun telah tiba.

mungkin akulah yang salah.

aku menyerahkan diri seutuhnya pada sebuah dunia yang bukan adalah duniaku.

aku menghempaskan diriku untuk hidup dalam kemayaan.

dan kini waktu memekurkan kesempurnaan dan bahwa aku harus kembali ke sebuah kenyataan.

kini waktu mengerjaku dan dunia mempermainkanku.

mempermainkan sebuah perasaan yang sedang rapuh dan dilanda dilema.

aku mungkin yang akan mengalah.

bila di dunia ini hanya tersisa kesakitan untuk hati ini, aku akan mengalah tuk pergi.

meski sjujurnya hati ini enggan melangkah pada belokan yang lain di depan.

namun aku rela.

bukan karena aku seorang pengecut yang suka lari dari kenyataan atau karena aku seorang pecundang yang takut terkalahkan oleh dunia.

aku tak takut gagal, aku tak takut kalah..

aku hanya takut untuk tersakiti dengan alasan yang sama.

hanya ituuu..

when i realise there is something that i can't work on.

even when i tried it more and more.

better for me to go my own way.

better for me to willing my self go.

just let me live my live as the river goes by..

aku hanya sebutir pasir di pinggiran pantai.

aku hanya setetes air di belahan samudera.

aku hanya seberkas debu di buku biru.

aku hanya setitik embun hujan di awan kelabu.

" i won't trust someone that ever broke my faith once.

and you broke it once, and it still pain inside.

you came to my heart and tore it apart.

you know that i only have a little faith, and you broke it.

till i can't count that sadness, that tears..

i care about you, but that doesn't work to my frozen heart.

so, i decided to let you go. eventhou' i'm hurting inside.

i know that you won't come back, cause you'll find your happiness there."

for the first time in my life i knew what i really want, but i'm also realize that what i want won't come true...

-we don't know what we've till it is gone-

you all isn't my destiny.

well...

it's not easy to broke someone life when you know how precious they're.

so i decided to leave when the day has come.

don't get it the wrong way, i'm not someone that like to leave someone.

but i have my own reasons for what i choose, a reasons that can't be explain in a word.

the things i know that you can get someone better than me.

cause i can't give you the kind of friendship that you've been searching all these times.

i'm not the one who can wipe your tears away through good and bad times.

you shouldn't be with me, i become a real jerk whenever you near me.

there always must be a reason why i'm alone these times cause i'm comfortable that way.

meet and say goodbye it's a thing that unavoidable, so let it be.

i want to be someone that always be there,

but for some reasons i knew i could never be that person for you.

i won't cry because it came to an end, but i will smile because it happened.

i may shed a tear for today for the friendship that you and i can't have.

a friendship that must have an ending.

your happiness is my only consideration and that's the real reason why i have to let you go.

cause i know that you can't be with me.

you can get someone better than me, someone that always be there to make you smile and wipe your tears.

and you know it couldn't be me.

i'm giving up before it's too late..

before time shout in your ears that you can't be with me anymore.

thank you for make me understand the thing call " friendship"

for make me learn and know that friendship is true.

just hope you'll still be with me in the time i left.

tathahachi